Modern
Day Samaritan Woman
A
Test in Obedience – 31 Days
Head
Covering / Prayer Room / Facing Giants
Day 9
: RELUCTANT FORGIVENESS
Yesterday, Day 9, found me
praying earlier than usual. An unexpected plea from my daughter, during the
late afternoon, to pray and intercede
with her regarding her vehicle and finances had me grabbing for my prayer shawl
earlier and kneeling down beside my bed. As mentioned in
my previous post…We do not know what is
in the balance AND what the cost is too our loved ones, when we are ill
prepared and distracted!!! And we should be ready to pray and intercede
instantly, at a moments notice…
However,
having done so I discovered that despite being able to pray with her and for her,
I couldn’t properly settle into my own prayer routine and continue with the challenge.
I already knew what the problem was …Forgiveness!!! Or rather un-forgiveness’.
I was still angry about the fiasco with my
dog the previous day and I really didn’t want to forgive…(As I type I am still struggling
with it.), because to my way of thinking it’s akin to forgiving the attempted
murderer of my beloved dog and condoning the negligence that had occurred.
Yes!
I do know that none of that is actually true and I am very aware that in order
to move on I must find forgiveness in my heart. Yet, this battle continues raging
in my thoughts and heart. I am in effect my own enemy and I know that I have to
have the matter resolved by tonight in order to move on.
Matthew 6:15 “But if you do not forgive others [nurturing your hurt and anger with the result that it interferes with your relationship with God], then your Father will not forgive your trespasses.” AMP (Emphasis my own)
Spiritual
Lesson :
To be reluctant to forgive provides the
enemy with plenty of leverage to hinder my prayers for loved ones. It interferes
with my relationship with God and the worst part…He will not forgive me my
trespasses…
Physical
Lesson :
The practise of wearing the prayer shawl
has become quite natural to me now; however to date I have done so in private only.
(and on my blog :o)… My family are aware of it; but have never seen it…Perhaps it’s
time to include them.
Prayer:
Father, Forgive me for my un-forgiveness.
Help me to truly submit to Your Will in this matter and let it go. I pray that
You will guide me into the secret places of prayer and teach me to pray as I
ought to…
In Jesus Name we pray…Amen!!!
*Hugs* till next time.
Ariéte
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